我这次不隐藏

不隐藏什么呢？

对我稍微认识的人都应该知道，我不属于那种很容易哭得稀里哗啦的女生。甚至还鄙视那些为了一些傻X事就哭得双眼红肿的人，真让我大汗 ==”
个人谈吐，平日处事态度，都让外界对我产下的印象都类似于坚强，不易流露真想法，果断

经常对自己说，虽然很不能忍受别人在我面前哭，但他要是真的一定要让我见识眼泪是长什么样的，那我也无奈啊。。就只好默默在心里祈求他‘不要再他妈的哭了，哭有屁用？！’
看着我有这样的想法，很自然的我也不让自己随便哭泣，除非是真的真的很委屈，太伤心，太开心，太感动了，直到真的没别的办法，就只好让眼泪涌出几滴，就擦好，对外界说“我没事儿！一切都归正常！”

很坦白的说，我就算哭了，我也会打死不承认。。因为觉得人哭的时候是表现自己极度软弱的时候。。而且就在这时候特别容易被攻击，被人耍，对此时发生的事更在意，结果只是让自己更难受。。何必呢？

但这次，我不隐藏

我很骄傲的向大家说：我为了朋友的短信掉了几滴眼泪

为什么可以这么潇洒的说呢？因为我小便乱撒    （开玩笑啦！><)

其实是因为我特别感动啊！

朋友都参加了一年一度的古晋节，品尝各种当地正宗小吃，欣赏表演，欣赏每年都一定会展示的‘神奇’抹布 (超郁闷的！跟你们说哦，每一年，一定会有推销员狂向人家推销抹布 ==" 抹布就抹布啊，哪儿可能会有多神奇。。郁闷！）

本人已经错过了两次的古晋节了，好遗憾，好想家乡。。

但我特别感动的原因是因为虽然好哥儿们+ 一位女生（是和我一起在7年里干过无数疯狂事件的死党！爱死她了！）都去了，但他们都一直感觉得到我的缺席
到家时就直接上FB发短信给我说他都好想我，看了我鼻子酸酸的 >< 不过又特别开心！(^v ^)~   被这么多人惦记的确是一件很幸福的事！\(^v^)v

Swarmed with Malaysians

Simply grab any asian at my campus and the chances of them being Malaysian is higher than the chance of you guessing the correct answer to a multiple choice question.

Alright, I might be exaggerating but, MAN, it's so embarassing when people ask me "Hey, you don't really have an accent" or "You do have a slight accent but I can't figure it out...where are you from?"

and I would go, "oh, I'm from Malaysia." and a groan resounds and this sentence is uttered "OHMYGOD this place is swarming with you Malaysians!" 

Like I'm supposed to explain why this phenomenon is happening or something. Crap.

But guess what?

People either guess I'm a hongkie or a chinese (from mainland China) or a taiwanese (if they hear me speak hokkien/taiwanese).

Had a few guesses that I was from Korea or Japan. Seriously, Korea? lol..it happened like this:

I walked into a korean cyber cafe and this guy at the counter said hello in korean and started spouting korean while I looked at him with an expression that tried to convey that I UNDERSTAND NO SHIT EXCEPT YOUR HELLO. (annyeonghaseyo)

it was funny though when he realised it. hahaha

And it was weird when I accidentally bumped into someone on the street and he said sorry. Then looked at me a second time, and went 'sorry' in japanese. (Sumimasen) =__=" lol

Anyway, I was telling Andrew about me being mistaken for a chinese this time. Here's an excerpt of the conversation.

Andrew  says:
btw u do speak like u're from china when u want to

bpbpbp=   ~ ¢LäW£  ~  =pbpbpb says:

 i never spoke before in front of that person, and he has only heard me speak english

 then he guess im frm china

 LOL

Andrew says:

@@

u mix with china peeps alot

 or u look like china chinese

bpbpbp=   ~ ¢LäW£  ~  =pbpbpb says:

 i dont mix with china peeps in uni, reason being, they are rare

 they are an endangered species

 whereas malaysians.....u can open fire anytime

  Andrew 郭瀚声 says:

 THEY HAVE 1.3 BILLION FOR GODS SAKE! XD

hmm so yeah. if you do have the chance to visit my campus and you're in the mood for hunting, bring your rifle. it is ALWAYS malaysian hunting season. we overrun the place. f3

ciao peeps (:

让我喷饭的图片

刚在帮朋友寻找关于忧郁症的图案，好让她在发表会上的幻灯片用嘛
所以就上了谷歌找找。。结果就看见一个超级特别的，看了我在大学的图书馆里快憋到跨了
自己看看吧

那就让你们成立自己的感想吧 呵呵

Human nature

Alrighty, here goes:

Results of my semester 1 exams were released a mere 2 hours ago.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY FREAKED OUT     :O :O :O :O :O

I was so totally not prepared for it, as it was written on homepage that the results would be released tomorrow. Ugh! Argh!

Was online (as usual *rolls eyes*) and watching the last episode of the korean drama 'You're Beautiful'..

(ok i'll deviate a bit off the main topic to gush about how good this drama is! here's a pic hoho~)

and another :P

I seldom get hooked on dramas, but this one really reeled me in. I swallowed everything - bait, hook, and rail >.<   hahaha
but seriously, it is good - the acting is really good. I couldn't stop watching episode after episode, and now, I have dark circles from staying up to watch dramas instead of world cup. wtf? lol! but anyway, it is worth watching :D and it came out during the end of 2009, but I waited until now to watch it. Hmm, it's a wonder I even watch it, considering I do not watch any dramas, tv shows whatsoever.
Anyway, I know I'm sorta being a broken record now but......this drama is good!! Korean and japanese dramas FTW! taiwanese dramas - BOOOOO childish and crappy plot and ugly people o0o

Alright, where was I........ :X

*scrolls up*
*ooh~ I see*


Okay, I was watching the last episode of You're Beautiful and Kokwee came online and said 'heyy'.

At that time, I was taking a break from watching the drama and was looking through facebook and saw quite a few people hyped up about WES, including Kokwee.
Thinking it would probably be about semester 2 course fees, I simply asked him about it.

Then..

BAM  BOOM POW

"results will be out soon!!"
"what?? isn't it tomorrow at 12 noon??"
"nooo, they usually come out half a day earlier!"
"omfg! AHHHH!"
"It's up! go see!"
"where?? which link??"   (was freaking out til the point where I suddenly become mentally impaired that I had to ask which link ==")
"click this this, that that"
"AHHH I GOT IT!"

Luckily, I pass all units for this semester :D hehehe
Which brings me back to my title of this post

HUMAN NATURE

Humans are hard to please. If you ever manage to do something 100% right, someone out there would always ask "why not 101%?"

Well, as a human myself, I saw my results and thought.....

"If I had another 2 marks here, I could go from a P to a C"
"Why did I only get a D for this? I expected a HD!"
and yadah yadah yadah you get the idea

Then, I caught myself and realised, I had better slap some sense back into me.

I mean, come on, I was the one who was always saying I'll be damn satisfied with any kind of result, as long as I don't fail.
And now, I got my wish. I DID NOT fail. I should be thankful I did meet my goal. If I am still unsatisfied, I only have myself to talk to as obviously I did not put in sufficient effort to achieve a better grade.

CONCLUSION: be thankful. :P don't ask for too much when you bloody know deep down in your heart, you got what you deserve. bahahha

Ciao people :)

日本节

今天是墨尔本一年一度的日本节！


分享一些照片。。。。

有很多东东好参观哦！例如传统日本表演啊，空手道表演啊，日本长笛表演啊，书法，和服比赛。。。。。。还多得很呢！^^ 我在这个地方逗留了几乎四个小时，拼命似的到处走走看看还有。。。。吃吃吃美味的日本食物哦！呵呵~




这个是我家室友，是他带我们去看的~

他还专门穿了日本浴衣来噢！哈哈好有气氛



我还看见了这个，让我汗了一下

一定要在日本节展示日本人理发的功夫麽？？ =___=
再看看那位客人的表情。。郁闷死了哈哈哈哈

日本书法！和中文一样啊，不是吗？

悦耳的音乐~




咱们回家之前，我不经心的瞄了一样东西。。。

哇！！免费的酱油呢！我表情立刻转换成。。。

我：真的？而且又那么容易就能拿到！好！我去！






我家另一个室友也很兴奋的说“去去去！”
这就是他 =___=

照片有点不清楚，因为当他见到我在拍他，他竟然推了我一把，说“我又没穿得很特别，你干嘛拍我呀！”
真他妈的没教养！我咒他喝凉水都会塞了牙缝，呛死他！！ o0o
总而言之，他还比我更兴奋，一直吹我们快点去拿酱油，不然会被人家拿完了
那好，大家一同去填了调查问卷，为了那瓶酱油。。
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我们三人，每人成功得到了。。。。。

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这一小袋的酱油！！！
太郁闷了！！>.<

Unlucky to paint oneself in this way..

Seems like the aussies do this every year

I'll let the pics do the intro for this post.


In broad daylight:

People dressed up as zombies parade down the streets. Check out their outfits, and the modifications they did

Loads of people taking pictures as well, blocking me from getting better shots (as i'm short, but oh well..)

Spare some brains? This kid sure is creative.

               

Alright. Pictures given you an idea of what happened in Melbourne city today?

It's kinda weird. I mean, why the hell would people want to dress up so creepily? for what purpose? what's the purpose of having a zombie day anyway?
Me just thinks it's sort of inviting bad luck to come your way. Even little kids join in the 'fun', and that should not be allowed. Like seriously. Superstitious stuff, but I find that following asian old wives tales wouldn't lead you very far off track, cos' it really is best to not play with things you are unsure of.

This reminds me of the same scenario I encountered last year in Adelaide. Me was eating a very yummy tiramisu mousse at my ever-so-favourite Cocolat down on Rundle Street.
A guy in his early twenties with his face smeared with fake blood and looking revolting and gross, slammed his face into the window behind me. I turned around and found myself staring smack in the face of the fugliest human being me has ever seen. I was shocked and felt my heart go cold. My friends who were having a drink with me laughed as well at the expression on my face. The fugly person laughed at me and walked away. I felt hot, and automatically shoved my middle finger at the guy's retreating backside image (pity he didn't see me do it), and my friends thought it was priceless because they've never seen me that pissed before. Lol.

Okay, sharing is finished for today hehe. Ciao people!

Signing off,
ClaWs
Melbourne, 1548

真有意思

1.对于刚认识你没几天就叫你“宝贝”的人，当朋友可以，情侣就免了，你要知道，你没有什么特殊，他也一定这样称呼别的他感兴趣的女生.




2.對于喜歡你但沉迷于游戲當中的人，离开他，当普通朋友可以，情侣就免了，跟著他也不會有幸福的，天天罵架就有.



3.没有相处几天就向你提出“发生····”的人，离开他，这种人已经没救，他只需要一个女人.



4.不要找什么又帅又有钱的人做男朋友，除非你足够优秀，要不然你是拴不住他的，不要找你理想中的什么帅哥，为什么不把你身边知道珍惜你的他改变成你喜欢的风格~当然前提是他同意为你改变，那你是幸运的.



5.不要找一个只知道吃喝玩乐的人做男友，跟着他你会不知不觉的跟他一起堕落.



6.不要和别人攀比对象如何帅，如何有钱，那是他的，不是你的，应该重视男友对自己好不好，有没有得奖学金，关心他的素质.



7.对于总是盘问你家里经济情况的男友，最好问他一句“你是爱我呢，还是爱我爸妈？！”



8.对于一天一条信息都没有给你发的男友，离开他，相信你自己应该很清楚，你对他而言，可有可无.



9.不要无限制的让他花钱，爱情是2个人的事，他不是父母，没有义务抚养你.



10.在他朋友面前，装得乖乖的，给他面子，没人的时候在收拾他，男生也是，在女友朋友面前要百依百顺，记住，面子是互相给的.



11.对于没有理想，没有斗志的男人，再帅再有钱，那也是暂时的，只有真心对你，在心中发誓要让你比谁都幸福的男人，才会给你下半生的幸福~~



12.不要总在男友面前说别人男友多么有钱，你应该关心他的学习，关心他的理想.



13.不要因为寂寞而谈恋爱，要因为爱，而谈恋爱^^



14.不要在乎别人的过去，因为你要拥有的是他的以后.



15.总是忘记某些重要日子的男人，离开他，那不是忘记，而是不在乎.



16.虽说女生要有独立的经济能力，不能无限制的花男友的钱，但对于一毛不拔的男人，离开他，在某种心里科学上解释，“男人花钱的多少，和他爱这个女人的多少，是成正比的”~但记住，花不花是他的事，但要不要是你的事，爱他就得替他省钱.



17.甜言蜜语，偶尔听听可以，如果男友总说，请他停止。



18.记得对他微笑，难受抱着他哭，每天睡前说晚安，wanan ~~ w a n a n ~~我爱你，爱你！



19.无论你的他怎样糟糕，让自己不断魅力，即使不是为了他，也是为了自己.



20.不断给自己充电，学习，只有外表但没有内涵的女生仍然不是美的~要有养活自己的能力，靠男人养，无论他怎样爱你，终有一天你会抬不起头.



21.保持单纯的心，用心去谈恋爱，~珍爱自己~



22.不要总是让你的他等你，迟到不是你的特权，他爱你，而不是他怕你~



23.真心喜欢的人，努力付出，也许会失败，但至少努力过，不丢人.



24.不要把时间都放在恋爱上，给朋友和家人一些时间，身旁的过客不断更换，但唯有家人和朋友伴你一生，原谅你任何过错.



25.在网上认识的人，没有经过深入了解后，不要和他在一起， 不排除有时缘分就是这样安排，但请千万别草率.



26.真正喜欢你的男生喜欢看你的日志而多于看你的照片，他想了解你的内心多一些，而不仅仅是外表.



27.对于出轨的男人，如果真的离不开他，就给他一次机会，记住仅此一次，否则毫不犹豫离开他.



28.遇到好男人要敢于抓住，不要以后捶胸顿足说后悔.



29.不要玩弄别人感情，玩暧昧，每个人都不希望被玩弄，己所不欲，勿施于人~！或许你会明白！
 
 
刚在FACEBOOK看了这张文章。。有人写得好好噢
大家不觉得，文章里的所有都很有意思吗?
有时候，女生真的该学着点。。
不要太草率，不要太轻浮，不过，也不要太认真。。
睁大双眼，看透了一个人，在决定。。也不迟是吧？ ~\(^_^)/~

Day at the zoo

Went to the zoo today with 3 housemates plus the mom of one of the housemates.. =x haha weird? actually it was alright (: the mom's cool hahaha..here's a picture of us all

From the left, Yi Hong, Chee Mun's mom, Chee Mun, Kevin and me
Yi Hong's from Johor
CheeMun - Subang
Kevin - Singapore

When singaporeans and malaysians get together, you're bound to hear butchered english.Aiya what to do? Lol
Anyway, to start off the day, we got to the zoo around 11am. A surprising sight greeted us all.

See how long the bloody queue was! Everyone (including us) were stupid enough to waste money (my ticket was AUD18.50) just to see some stinky animals. Ah well, I could probably say this is human nature, to spend money where they should not :D Lol, personal opinion though ;)
However, the queue shortened relatively quickly, and I was soon staring at this

After buying tickets, we walked and walked and walked and walked and walked.....
for five hours, looking at the animals.
Yeah you saw right..
FIVE HOURS
SPENT LOOKING AT STINKY (albeit cute XD) ANIMALS!

Some pictures to share...

No, the little girl isn't an animal. Just thought this 

picture was cute. The way she stared at the pig statue..LOL! and see how small she is when she stands next to her mom's butt.

More pictures...

this was a really weird bird. It kept flapping its wings for God knows what reason. Looked funny though :D

no idea why this orang utan was covering his head with the sack. hahaha

this is the arse of an animal called Mandrill. This is supposed to be the male mandrill. look at the female's arse.

IT IS SO ****ING DISGUSTING! I only took the side view..couldn't even bring myself to look at full frontal. and considering the fact that I can handle practically anything gross/disgusting/eewy stuff, this is pretty serious.

Anyway, to try to forget about that, Ima gonna introduce you guys to a super cute animal called the Emperor Tamarin!

sorry if it's not clear, with all the bars/wires of the cage blocking its cute face. you guys can try googling it. It has a beard and a moustache curling upwards. super cute! hahaha

Ended today with dinner at a chinese restaurant, called the wonton noodle shop or something like that. located at chinatown. the food was very average. will not be returning there next time. better to eat at spicy fish restaurant, also at chinatown :D

alrighty, need to take a shower, pack my bag for first day of uni tomorrow, and sleep (: 

and of course, thanks to Joshua, for explaining to me how blogspot works. cheers, man. :D

~ ClaWs ~

Location: Melbourne

Local time: 2212

在飞机场发生的事

现在好闲哦。。
在飞机场等我去墨尔本的飞机。。得等差不多三个小时
说起来，现在我能在机场上网络，时间应该过得的更快哦
这样也好。。因为我走完了TERMINAL 1, 都没地方看看了
其实新加坡机场也不过就这样嘛。。不见得有很多地方能让我购物。。而且价钱会吓死人，哪舍得花那样的钱呐

刚刚在国内的飞机里吃午餐。。吃了饭与鸡肉，现在还饱得很，但坐在我旁边的伟贤突然说他饿了。。靠，男生可真会吃 @@

哦哦哦！锦州说他很期待我回国。。而他会铺好红毯子，让乐队用美妙的音乐迎接我。。之后会让豪华跑车送我回家。。哇～ 人好好哦。。呵呵呵 XD
说到锦州。。真是的，他的名字我找了半天，还是找到了 ‘锦粥’。。

粥
粥
粥
粥
粥

哈哈哈哈哈乐死我了 XD
让大家看看他被我弄得哭笑不得的时候。。

bpbpbp= ~ ¢LäW£ ~ =pbpbpb says:
锦粥？
粥？
@nT蚂蚁 says:
==
GG
GG
GG
GG
GG
GG
GG
GG
GG
GG
==|||

X)

嗯嗯还有。。为了让大家一同欣赏这个特殊有好听的名字，我在MSN上写了这： 锦粥。。好好听的名字。。

谁知道。。好心被狗咬。。
看看，锦州和我说的。。

@nT蚂蚁 says:
oiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
bpbpbp= ~ ¢LäW£ ~ =pbpbpb says:
what?
@nT蚂蚁 says:
your PM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why you will get that name when you google it?
you type my name and it gives you tat chinese name?
bpbpbp= ~ ¢LäW£ ~ =pbpbpb says:
hahahah yaya
@nT蚂蚁 says:
that is really GG
no wonder google has double g in it
because they are really GG
bpbpbp= ~ ¢LäW£ ~ =pbpbpb says:
hahahahh

唉 T.T
看来锦州真的被我给炸到了。。
哈哈哈哈哈哈 \(^v^)/
好有成就感哦！

～ ClaWs ~
Location: Singapore
Time: 5.36 pm

Starting over, fresh, from scratch

Alright, seems like I had this blog for like..2 years? Well, I've recently had an idea to "remodel" the whole blog. I'm deleting old, pointless crappy posts, and going to start posting new stuff that I can share with friends and proudly saying:

VISIT WILDCLAWS.BLOGSPOT.COM WHERE THE ONE AND ONLY ME SHARES HER MISERABLE AND BORING LIFE EXPERIENCES!

And so...I'm gonna start over, fresh, from scratch, save for one last post i posted last month..so that I could mark the beginning of a new year with January instead of this month (:

Went to Peach Garden today with Cherng, Andrew and Ching Ye for drinks and supper. To get out of the house, I had to listen to a lecture from my parents on how girls should be home at this time of the day (it was 10.30pm). However, me being stubborn and everything, rushed out of the house when Andrew finally arrived with my dad half shouting at me to NOT GO OUT! mood spoiler ugh.. anyway, saw Yiing, Khai, WuShing and a few of their friends having their drinks at Peach Garden too. Was surprised Joshua wasn't there as he's always out and about everyday. Later learnt that the popular guy was elsewhere having a drink or whatever lol. See, popular people are hard to pin down :D

I did not plan to eat at all as I'm such a fattie now, but was feeling somewhat sien (read: a combination of being irritated and frustrated at the same time/郁闷), and a good remedy for sienness is to EAT EAT AND EAT! :s I wonder why though..but well, *shrugs* it works for me.
Ordered a plate of fried mihun with clams, and gave about a third of the serving to Ching Ye as I wasn't sure I could finish a full plate when I wasn't hungry at all.

And so, the four of us ate and drank while talking about our ancestors from China and how we're descended from them. Owh, family history..quite interesting however, especially Ching Ye's account of how her grandparents came here. Andrew commented that it would be like a soap opera if we could make a movie out of Ching Ye's story lol. It's THAT storylike, which can cause most people to stare at her and go "Yeah right, you took that out from some movie right?" but hey, that's what makes it cool! woohoo

Talking about Ching Ye makes me think..this girl, who was teased by Joshua and Roger for not getting her P plates yet, finally finally FINALLY got them today..and passed with full marks!
:x :x :x :x :x :x *cough cough*
WOW LOL incredible! Now we've got ourselves a new driver..one that drives a Mercedes! :D

1.49am! wait, SCRATCH THAT! 1.50am..and here I am, not feeling the remotest feeling of drowsiness. Wondering how the heck I'm going to survive when I go to Melbourne next week..where the time is 3 hours ahead of local time. My whole circadian rhythm would be thrown into chaos AGAIN! well, I never learn :P

Byebye!


~ ClaWs ~
Location: Malaysia
Time: 1.51 am

好困哦

曾不曾试过。。虽然困得快垮了，但还死撑着，也不知道为什么，就是不想入睡？唉，自己还蛮无奈的。。因为缺眠的时候，就容易伤感 >.<就念旧啊，想很多，为什么时间不停留在美好的时刻呢？好想回到当初无知的十五岁～ 那时候，天天到学校去玩儿，乐得很，没啥事能让现在的我烦到快爆发了！除了这些，当初与好朋友们的感情也难免会有变化。。当然，我还有和很多同学保持联络。。回国后也经常出去逛逛街什么的。。不过，变化是有存在的。。而且，有些很要好的朋友也变得几乎面目全非了。。果然是女/男大十八变啊！人家也说我变了。。而且不仅仅是外表。。就连言谈举止，性格，都有些变化。。我自己却察觉不到。。可能是因为我其实变得不多，而是朋友们变得更多呢？看了看我以前写过的部落格留言，其实是蛮幼稚的。。呵呵，这样是不是很矛盾呢？刚说了自己没什么变，现在又说改变了？嗯嗯。。确实吼～不知道如何把现在的心情写下。。真的难以形容。。算了吧，睡一觉，迎接新的明天，勇往直前！虽然前方的路很模糊，但，我相信我是能够过得很好的！给自己打打气！耶耶耶～！！